February 2012
5 posts
You you you.
It happened. I fell in love with you. And nothing can ruin this for us. <3
I always get full of anxiety when I don’t have anyone to talk to. I feel so lonely when I’m not texting anyone, but I’m too nervous to text people first.
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If I ignore it, it will go away.
Again.
I’m back to crying every day and wishing I didn’t exist.
January 2012
10 posts
I just feel hideously ugly today and I want to sleep forever.
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Pretty girls make me SO. MAD.
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Here
Why are you here?
Confined by the expectations of society
Rejecting every notion of beauty and freedom
And accepting every notion of inferiority and inadequacy.
You build fences to separate what is, from what could be
Never letting a single blade of grass cross that threshold
You renounce all claims of deception
“I’m only being myself,” you say.
“I’m not hiding anything,” you...
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"You don't do anything."
FBLA. Forensics. Debate. TSA. Scholars bowl. Choir. Digital video.
I’m memorizing and writing two speeches. I spent the last month preparing for state debate. I’ve been cutting my prose piece for two weeks now. I spend Tuesdays and Thursdays working on debate for TSA. I’m working on two solo pieces for choir. I have an AP lang paper due this month, three chemistry worksheets,...
I hate everything.
I hate spicy food. I hate wearing real pants. I hate cold weather. I hate rap music. I hate chemistry. I hate company. I hate pickles. I hate hotel towels. I hate hang nails. I hate getting my hair cut. I hate LOUD PEOPLE. I hate basements. I hate fluorescent lighting. I hate unpacking. I hate ppl who tlk lyke dis. I hate signing my name. I hate wearing dresses. I hate The Grapes of Wrath. And I...
“Oatmeal raisin cookies that look like chocolate chip are the reason I have trust...”
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freeyourmindfollowyourheart asked: And unworthiness. I lost my virginity to him. I felt like a slut, I felt scared and humiliated, and that will always stay with me. I was strong enough to let him go.... But slowly I'm falling back into him, and he tells me he promises not to do it again.... But those feelings wash over me once in a while an I wider if it's worth it. I may not know you, but I'm so proud you made it...
December 2011
3 posts
“Once they see you doing better without them, that’s when they want you...”
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My Christmas Wishlist!!!!
A micrphone (to record covers with!)
A gray Northface jacket
TOMS (with polka dots!)
A good camera (to record videos with!)
Mustache band aids! (‘Cause they’re COOL)
Christina Perri tickets
Adele tickets
Ingrid Michaelson tickets
A new guitar (to record videos with!)
And that’s pretty much it. :)
PS - I might start uploading videos here soon, so if you have any...
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Stupid Stuffs
I just want you to know that part of me will always love the person you used to be. The person you were when we were together. But it’s been so long since I’ve seen you, and I know that we have nothing together. Not anymore. It’s tragic, really. But the time has come to move on. And we’re doing a very good of it. Thank you for the memories.
November 2011
3 posts
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Good morning babycakes!
Good morning texts and holding hands and chocolate chip cookies and movie dates and cuddling and car rides down dirt roads and guitar playing and song singing and soft, sweet kisses.
I’m so glad I found you.
Forever yours,
-G-
I miss you, but that doesn't mean I need you back....
September 2011
2 posts
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Lippy Kids
Your smile, your eyes, your voice. It’s flawless. Everything you do is flawless. I hold my breath when you walk by. I get flustered and skittish and animated and lippy. You make me laugh, you make me smile. Your words are fireworks. We could build a rocket. We could dance and sing and fly. We could close our eyes, pick a dirt road and drive until our newly formed hearts were content. And...
nevertrustanearthling asked: have you attempted suicide?
August 2011
8 posts
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Recovery
Recovery has been so so good to me. I’ve NEVER been able to feel this sorta blissful state of ecstasy…I’m genuinely calm and happy and optimistic all at once and everything just feels like it’s perfect because it’s imperfect. None of it makes sense, but all of it is perfect. I guess it’s true.
Things are only perfect when you accept reality with all its...
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Perspective
Hi, guys. Tomorrow is my second day of school. I’m blogging for no particular reason, so sorry if I’ve wasted a few minutes of your life by having you read this. I just wanted you to know…
Life can be so truly beautiful if you just open yourself up to it. Every day you have a new chance to make something of yourself, you know? Every day, you can start over. Take a deep breath,...
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Reblog if you have ever:
marrythestars:
-Self harmed. -Thought of suicide. -Had an eating disorder. -Felt useless. -Lost all hope. I want to tell each and every one of you something.
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“You’re beautiful; every little piece, love. Don’t you know?...”
– Taylor Swift
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“I think it’s so stupid when girls put on makeup to go to the POOL....”
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It hurts.
Ouch. Just, ouch. I CAN’T EVEN SAY ANYTHING. I don’t even know what I’m typing. This is just too much. It always feels like it’s just too much. There are so many things I wish you knew. SO many nights I’ve stared at my ceiling just DREAMING of the things I would tell you, if I could. If I only could. I gave you everything. I gave you all of me, every single piece of...
Anonymous asked: post your icon?
Anonymous asked: Was this not a girl named Mauna who had this site????
July 2011
3 posts
l0nelysouls asked: can i ask why you unfollowed? x
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Current State of the Union
So there’s this boy. I have a small crush on him…he’s cute, sensitive, plays the guitar, and seems so nice. But. I don’t know how he feels. I don’t know if he’s just being friendly, or if he likes me. My guess is the former. Sigh. So I’m trying to my hardest to tuck those feelings away, to prevent any future embarassment or suffering.
But it doesn’t...
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June 2011
5 posts
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You know it's all the same...
I still get the urge to talk to you. All the time. But I don’t want to talk to you, because you don’t want me. And I’m not supposed to want you, but I miss how good our relationship used to be before it turned into something out of a soap opera. And not the cheesy kind, either. But even if I did talk to you…what would I say? Nothing I can say can bring you back, and all I...
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Dear _____,
You abandoned me on my darkest days. I feel that you don’t care if I live or die. I think that you are heartless and conceited. I have lost too much blood, tears, and time just trying to make you like me. I am not responsible for you hurting me. The best thing I can tell you is that I am recovering from this. You do not control me through this. I have found support from God and my family.
...
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“I won’t let this build up inside of me.”
– Slipknot
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And Many More
Hello! It’s been a while. A long while. A lot has happened. I don’t know where to begin. So I’m starting by saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself. I made it to sixteen years old. This is something I wasn’t planning on doing. But thanks to God, sometimes plans fall apart. I’m glad things happened the way they did, and I wouldn’t change a thing.
I’m growing as a...
April 2011
10 posts
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Current State of the Union
Things I Don’t Know:
The truth Why I’m always hungry How he feels How long I can hold out Why I feel so awkward all the time Why I can’t sleep
Things I Know:
I’m still hungry He’s mad I liked the kisses I am stressed I’m going to bomb my oration I love the guitar The guitar doesn’t love me I miss my dad I miss him too I want to move on I’m thirsty...
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I have to get this out of my system.
And now for a mindless and petty rant:
Hey _____,
Single, eh? Nice try. You’re not a very good liar. This is a small town; you should’ve known I’d find out. I told you that I’ve recently gone through a lot of stuff and you said all you wanted was my happiness. Bullshit. To go through a break-up that made me question my existence and then be lied to by you was really the...
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Last night...
Regret
Hunched over in bed
Wearing a mascara-stained t-shirt
Trying to forget
You know that feeling? When you have a million things to say…and you open your mouth expecting them to flood out in mass chaos…but instead. Nothing. Instead, they cling to your insides, refusing to leave. They inhabit every part of your body, only to be released in the form of tears. But those tears...
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Why?
Why did I make a Tumblr account? Good question. I’m here to let my story be known. To go about it this way means privacy while being candid with anyone who may stumble upon these posts.
I know what you’re thinking: how is this private? It’s actually not. I like to talk to strangers. It gives me a sense of relief while being able to avoid putting my business out for my...
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“Maybe redemption has stories to tell; maybe forgiveness is right where you fell.”
– Switchfoot
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Welcome to the planet Welcome to existence...
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